Seven Months and One Week

Over the last week, so much has changed. I’ve made a U turn about pretty much everything in my life. But now, I feel like all the decisions I’m making are the right ones. They are what I actually want to do rather than what I think I should be doing. Now it’s not just me I have to think about – I’ve got to make sure I’m making the right decisions for Luna too.

This week I had had all the Daisy and Sing&Sign songs stuck in my head. It’s driving me absolutely crazy! I think I need to sort myself out with a decent spotify playlist because ‘mr sun, sun, mr golden sun….’ is slowly eating away at my brain!

Development wise, Luna is so close to crawling now. She has been army crawling for a few weeks and can crawl and roll her way across a room in the time it takes me to blink. But this week she has pushed up on to her hands and knees. She’s still not sure what to do and just rocks but she’s pretty clever so it won’t be long!

She has worked out how to get from sitting to lying down, by flopping forwards and sideways, so I can no longer put her sitting down in the hope of her staying put for one minute.

She’s pretty close to pulling herself up on furniture. When Wolfie is sat on the sofa, she really tries her best to pull up to see him. She thinks he is her best friend but I’m not sure the feeling is reciprocated. If I had a tail I wouldn’t like it being pulled either, Wolfie.

She’s been super poorly with a chest infection but has tried her best to smile through it all. Even when her nose was running and I could tell she must have felt awful, she was smiling and trying to laugh.

This week, the guilt of being back at work got too much. It’s not being away from her that’s hard – it’s being away from her when I’m not fully convinced that what I’m doing is what I’m going to be doing for the rest of my life. What’s the point spending time away from her if it’s not working towards something better for us. Dave and I want to move house very soon, and he’s finally got a brilliant job in a big4 firm after 3 years studying. But now, I feel like I’m ready to have my big career moment and I started to think about what I really wanted. If I’m going to be a working mum, it needs to be for something I am super passionate about, especially as to maintain our lifestyle, we don’t really need my salary (or lack of it after childcare and petrol).

More on that in a few weeks once I have finalised my plans.

Weaning wise, Luna is still not interested really. She will nibble the odd fruit or vegetable but will not let me put a spoon anywhere near her face. She is still only seven months though and I’m sure once she learns to taste, chew, and swallow, she will love her food. But for now she is satisfied by the boobs and has her vitamin drops so I know she is doing fine. She’s also still on the 50th percentile line so everything is fine. It’s just so tiring setting everything up for food time only for it all to be thrown on the floor and mushed all over her hands and clothes! Hardly one tiny piece ever seems to make it into her mouth yet.

I’ve got a really exciting week ahead and I can’t wait to play with Luna all day long on my days off!